Category Archives: existence

Shadow Wings (poem)

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Shadow Wings Dress me in shadow wings Flesh blends to one race of night and void. But the shadows orchestrate the sun, Thinking of the warmth and newness of the day below galaxies of spiraling stars Riding the amplitudes of darkness, each bursting bubble an infrequent upsurge of glamorous spells Untenable and beyond comprehension.Dress me in Shadow wings Like a dragonfly who cannot produce fire Colors scintillating into the ether Weaved and flossed Moon reflections reflecting. Nothing soothes the night.  

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Anything But Zen

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Disclaimer: This post in no way represents any doubt about what I believe as far as religion. This is just part of the journey when you seek the truth. Some of it will be hard for your emotional-self to assimilate. But I believe that solutions exist and writing about it, talking about it, is my way of finding those solutions. This morning, after letting my dog, Giz out, and making coffee, I went back and opened the door to call Giz in, and instead of his name I just shouted, “Helloooooo!” A sign of Ginkgo Biloba deprivation? Early onset Old-Timers … Continue reading →

Thatness And Whatness

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(from my book in progress, Supernatural Hypocrisy: The Cognitive Dissonance of a God Cosmology”) Existence and essence–two things we are prevented from knowing about god from within the Christian faith. Why would we adopt a lifestyle, belief system, code, or any other guideline that has no basis in rational thought or empirical proof? Christian theology states that God is incorporeal, which is to say, non-material. This means God is not composed of matter, which renders the reference to God as a being meaningless. For if something is non-matter, how could it matter? We are beings who are made of matter … Continue reading →

Brain Dump: Mortality & Meaning

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Okay, I know this is going to be less a blog, and more a journal entry, but whatever. Consider it the first in a series of brain dumps. <<–Look, i even made a graphic for it…. Onward…. I usually try to see the bright side of things, and when I can’t do that, I try to see the funny side. Anyone who reads this blog knows that. And often the dark side can be funny, if you know how to manipulate the data. But this morning, I think my brain is in some other gear….PARK, maybe. It hits me like … Continue reading →

String Theory Romance

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I believe there is someone out there for everyone. More pointedly–someone out there for everyone at each stage in their life. I am not the same as I was 5 years ago, or even one year ago. I am constantly evolving. Constant evolution breeds chain reactions that reach our environment, other people, situations… Therefore, things shift. Lives re-align. I also believe that wishes and intentions are powerful. Thoughts are things. I really believe that. So if I keep focusing on what I want, I believe it will happen when and how it’s supposed to. In the meantime, I will try … Continue reading →

Breath of Life

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I am fascinated by the unknowable. Some people spend their whole lives saying “I Don’t Know” to those esoteric questions that arise. Me, I like to explore the issue and come to some sort of conclusion. It’s that propensity I have to bring order to the chaos. That’s another reason why all my bathroom accouterments are neatly stored in transparent shoe bags on the wall…. One monstrous “unknowable” is the question of when our souls enter our bodies. When does a life become something more than a tumor on life support, and instead a human complete with its own soul? … Continue reading →