Had my appointment with the surgeon this morning.

Per his advice, decided on the Total Abdominal Hysterectomy, Bilateral Salpingo Oophoractomy and Indicated Procedures. (Seriously, that’s what it’s called. Removal of uterus, cervix, ovaries, and tubes.)

The main consideration, and why I’m not doing laparoscopic procedure, is because if there is any hidden malignancy, and they do the (pardon the candor) mincing up of those organs for extraction, it could infect other organs

He actually shared a story about another patient that got cancer that way. And died. Point taken.

I’m sure that was his way of convincing me what the wise choice was. I agreed that there was no sense in risking it, just because i was afraid of open surgery. I worked at home, had someone to take care of me, so it was the only choice, really.

Surgery is scheduled for 30May. Pre-op appointment on the 15th. Wish me luck, folks.

So from this point on, I’ll be trying to ignore my fear until the very last minute. But I feel very fortunate to have one of the top surgeons in the country. (and he’s also a nice guy with a good bedside manner).

On the way home, I told Melissa, “Surgery terrifies me, but I really want to get rid of these demon babies in my womb.”