Hanging the Moon and Lesbian Monikers
Only seek LOCAL friends & dates. Please & thank you. LDR’s are usually doomed from the start. It’s like being pecked to death by chickens. So not big on them unless you can afford to travel to date me once a week. Especially if you can pick me up in a private jet. I’m afraid to fly, so I won’t ride in it, but it would still be stellar if you had one. We could park it on the tarmac & have some blackberry Merlot.
ME: I have all my teeth. I sleep on memory foam, because it helps me recall my dreams. I own a flatscreen TV & massage table. I like cheese. That’s all you need to know. Let’s get married.
Seriously, I’m an Author, Editor, Singer-Songwriter, Artist, Webmaster, Witty Intellectual; am stable, nurturing, a voracious learner, creative, intelligent, educated, witty, honest, selectively intense, sometimes geeky, always passionate. (Oh, & I’m also a bi-lingual illiterate: I can’t read or write in 2 different languages). I don’t play games unless they come in a box with instructions. I am always productive. You will never see me in a dress, unless I am unconscious, & someone is playing a prank. (those people are evil & must be destroyed). But I’m not Butch. Lipstick Lesbian.
I’m a positive realist (i.e., I think anything can happen, but it usually doesn’t). I’m a freethinker and humanist, and love cats, fireplaces, snow, Dinner Parties, Game Nights & Hen Parties. Love coffee (drinking it, smelling it, & fondling the beans) & conversation (from the sublime to the ridiculous), bookstores, flea markets (As long as the fleas are humanely treated, free-range & not in cages), movies, TV, reading, live music, stand up comedy, long walks- (I know I’m supposed to add “on the beach” but this is Colorado).
I believe successful relationships are predicated on the 5 C’s: Compatibility, Communication, Commonality, Chemistry & Commitment.
Tired of dates I want to smother with a pillow. I SEEK: a LESBIAN (I don’t engage in sex with Bi or Straight women, though this doesn’t preclude us being friends), who is SANE, with emotional & intellectual intelligence; educated, secure, not afraid of fun, laughter or deep conversations; who can make me laugh out loud, think, & has firm grip on reality & integrity; not afraid to explore her own issues, & be proactive in her personal evolution. I respect women who have their own life, interests & means of $ support, just like me. I am aroused by women who look like women, are confident, capable, witty & intelligent. If you have those qualities, drop everything & contact me right this second.
CRUCIAL CAVEATS: (unpleasant but apparently necessary to say). I have no tolerance for addicts, heavy drinkers, illegal drug users, anyone who needs anger-management class, or the ethically challenged. Really. If you fall in any of these categories, climb back into your little red wagon (or fancy jet) & pass me by.
If, however, you recognize yourself in WHAT I SEEK, & my details titillate or intrigue you, or you’d like to shower me with affection & appreciation, please contact me. ;^} Preferably from the cockpit of your private jet.
LOCALS ONLY PLEASE. I’m intelligent, witty, genuine, creative, ethical person who is always productive, selectively intense, sometimes geeky, always passionate. I don’t play games unless they come in a box with instructions. You will never see me in a dress, unless I am unconscious, & someone is playing a prank. (those people are evil & must be destroyed). I’m not Butch. Lipstick Lesbian.
Originally from the South, I moved to Colorado because I’ve always loved it here, & now make it my permanent home. Since I had to leave my friends behind when I moved, I seek a local circle of friends, & ultimately hope to find a loving life-partner who also requires meaningful conversation and enjoyable experiences. Stability, pleasure and happiness are my goals.
As retired military, I can now spend my time doing the things I enjoy most like writing (this is my greatest passion and identity marker), reading, sculpture, pottery, continuing self-education, watching TV and movies, spending quality time with friends, trying new restaurants, dinner and cocktail parties, gatherings at home with a small group of friends, and exploring this beautiful state. I’m open to suggestion, and will try almost anything unless it’s dangerous, illegal or unethical.
I must have a partner who will appreciate me for all the things I am, and all I have to give. I have a great deal to bring to a relationship, as I am honest, self-actualized, nurturing, communicative, humorous, sensitive, loving, affectionate and supportive, but I’m selective about who I will give that to, and at this point in my life, I won’t settle for less. If you are my partner, I want to come first in your life, as you will come first with me.
Says me: [Quotes from yours truly, copyrighted]:
“Real connection (and if it’s LOVE, then real love)–goes beyond those not-so-perfect and superficial and idiosyncratic things that simply make us individuals. The trust & longevity of a relationship between two individuals is established through time & learning each other, & discovering a harmony at the core of their connection. And it becomes powerful because of where it resides–at the center of who we are; the very essence of our being.”
“It’s one thing to say you think someone ‘hung the moon’ but that generally means they are blind & deluded, and then the relationship fails because they say you changed, when really, they never saw you at all. The real test is if someone sees all your flaws or blemishes or individual differences, and they still think you hung the moon.”
As far as romantic relationships go, I have been attracted to many different types. For me, it’s the whole package, and not one single thing you are. But in general, I am drawn to women who are mostly femme, attractive, genuine, witty, intelligent, and who enjoy giving and receiving affection and intimacy. Touch is very important to me. (I have a massage table).
Not interested in heavy drinkers, drug users, those with an STD. You must be emotionally available, self-actualized, stable & interested in meaningful (and sometimes lengthy) conversations. Otherwise, I’m not the one for you. A good partner for me will have few if any sexual boundaries, will recognize my value, be nurturing, and show her attraction and affection. I seek someone who wants to get to know me fully and isn’t intimidated by intelligence or passion or sensitivity. I do have a “work-day” of my own and need that time to do what I do, but when it’s time to clock out, I need a woman who wants to spend as much time as possible with me in her own off-hours.
If this resonates with you, contact me, and let’s skip the prolonged emailing and texting, and meet in person soon. I will only respond to those who provide RECENT, CLEAR PHOTOS. (Have had my share of those with something to hide, or those who use 20 year old pictures of themselves). That aside, I look forward to hearing from you!
Butch, Femme, Androgynous or Femepicene?All that aside, at the risk of being politically incorrect, I must say I find it disturbing that so many lesbians feel it necessary to mimic men. A lesbian, by definition, doesn’t want to be with a man and is a woman who loves women, in the romantic sense. In a very real way, then, masculinity in gay women is a contradiction. It is patently unnecessary to become manly in order to be with another woman. The need to be “manly” then, can sometimes be about gender-confusion, and not about being lesbian. This stance may be offensive to some, but indeed, I could say that I am offended by how easily some lesbians dismiss the beauty and power in themselves by diluting it with masculinity.Why would a group of people so vehement about avoiding the control and oppression of the other gender, be so anxious to mimic them to such a large degree? When a gay woman chooses to dress in masculine styles, such as what I call the “lesbian costume” of button-down shirts, khaki Dockers, and Doc Marten boots, she is reducing herself to a cliche of what gay women are: women, mimicking men. It is insulting to me, as a gay woman, that many other gay women don’t think their appearance is important, and don’t embrace their gender as it would seem they naturally would, as women who love women.This is not to suggest gay women should wear ball gowns or spike heels and mini-skirts. It just means, embrace the femaleness. Why do you think the L-Word is so popular, aside from the fact that it portrays lesbian lives in general? It’s because gay women are titillated by the beauty of these women. Attend any L-Word Watch Party and that much will be clear. Then, they run their fingers through their hair, tuck their button-down into their Dockers, slap on that ball cap and go home. Lesbians: if you are so tantalized by feminine, beautiful women, why do spend so little energy presenting yourself that way?So often I hear lesbians complaining about being stereotyped by the world at large. My suggestion is that if you don’t wish to be a stereotype, don’t dress and act like one.In the novels I write, I portray women as feminine or at least as lipstick lesbians, but rarely as dykes or otherwise manly females (which is, intrinsically, an oxymoron). The only time I do portray lesbians as butch or manly is when I’m. . .sort of. . .making fun of them. Stereotyping. I know. It’s not nice. But as I’ve already pointed out, Political Correctness is not my strong suit, nor something I aspire to. I think it does more harm than good, when telling the truth is always much better.In doing this, however, I have been accused of catering to straight men or merely “selling out” somehow, and yet, I find this assessment myopic, contradictory and just plain silly. I love women, because they are women. I love the feminine form. I am attracted to the quintessential qualities that make women FEMALE. If I wanted to be with a man, I would be straight. So this whole outrage based on my supposed treason against Sapphic love, strikes me as absurd.Why do you suppose that most straight women who experiment with lesbianism, pursue gay women who are manly? It’s a comfort zone, that’s why. They are not straying too terribly far from being with a man.The most attractive women, to me, are the ones who are androgynous. I use that term loosely, and colloquially, because the actual definition is way more severe and limiting than the context in which I utilize it here. Androgyny, by its original definition, means ambiguous in gender. Genderless, almost. Like the “Pat” character on the old Saturday Night Live. You can’t tell if the person is male or female. The way I mean it, is more like a woman who blends, in a harmonious fashion, the traits of both male and female, to create a balanced person. This means the woman looks like a woman, but can hammer a nail, ride a motorcycle, or be assertive, all without losing her essential womanliness.To whine about how you’re being mashed into a mold created by straight society, and not being allowed to express your natural self, seems a cop-out–a way to avoid embracing the gender to which you are born. It’s also an excuse to be lazy. If you don’t present yourself in the most positive way, i.e., by wearing decent clothes, a little makeup, and taking care of your body, then you are merely justifying the fact that you don’t care about your appearance. And why shouldn’t you care? Do you think that men define what is commonly considered “attractive”? Sorry, but that’s biology, and it extends to both genders. We are wired to be attracted to certain things; not the least of which is accentuating the best parts of ourselves.A great fictional character who exemplifies this balanced womanhood would be Xena, the Warrior Princess from television. She was strong, capable, assertive, loving, loyal, always looked fabulous and feminine. Even when she was kicking ass or cutting someone’s throat. . .I desperately want another term to describe strong, feminine lesbians.HOMOgenized Female. . .hmmm.Fembian. MMM.Sapphian.It occurred to me that epicene meant having the characteristics of both genders, blended. So how about Femepicene? (fem-ep-uh-seen).So women who are Femepicene are those most likely to get my attention. I can’t speak for every other gay woman.The point is, for me, it’s often difficult to even be lesbian, never mind the odds of finding a suitable mate. It is somewhat like the odds of my getting a million dollar publishing contract: it’s not inconceivable, but it’s not something I can rationally place on the altar of my existence.
Your blog has really inspired me to really completely re-think my way of writing. Just saying thanks for your great work.
Michael–thanks so much for your comment. That’s always a pleasure to hear. What sort of writing are you doing? What part are you rethinking? You know, i have a forum for writers too, if that might also help. http://KindredInkWriters.forumotion.net
Wow, Jae. I’ve been reading stuff all around this website, taking myself wherever my mouse clicks seem to take me, and here I land, at least for now. Everything (well, almost everything) I’ve read so far at your website here has been revealing of you for me, but at the moment, I feel I’m really glad I read this one. I think we have some things in common. My approach to femininity, as a transwoman, is definitely to appear to others as someone whose gender they can’t quite put their muddled brain-finger on, but definitely leaning toward “woman”. It’s a stealth or subtle approach, deliberately (maybe passively-agressively) challenging their simplistic “gender binary” world-view. As a matter of fact, a book I’m currently reading is a collection of case studies where the author’s intent is to point out that both the non-trans AND the trans communities “get it wrong” with regard to what he seems to advocate, which is an utterly complete removal of the gender binary from one’s consciousness. The book is “Disciplining Gender” by John Sloop. For me, it seems that many transwomen stress themselves over attempting to completely “pass” in public, meaning essentially no one would be able to “guess” that their birth gender was male. I’m not going to stress myself in that way, but that said, I love to dress and appear feminine, with the use of clothing and the whole suite of makeup, from moisturizer to foundation and powder and blush to eyebrow liner and mascara and eye shadow and eyeliner and lipstick.
Thanks for your words. I can’t pretend to understand anything on a visceral level that I haven’t felt or experienced. All I can do is encourage honesty and the pursuit of happiness. I appreciate your intelligence and the time you took to write the comment. I wish you all the best of everything.
I love this post Jae. I can relate
Thanks so much. People often ask me how I can be so revealing of myself…and I just have to say that we are all humans having the same experience and there’s no sense in pretending we are immune to life’s challenges..