Monthly Archives: May 2009

Silk Purses from Sow’s Ears

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My best friend holds that distinction for many reasons, not the least of which is, she manages to teach me how to find opportunity in adversity. During this recent challenge, though I approached it as I always do, by getting information and understanding what I really had to face, (and what I didn’t)–in seeking the truth–I was very proactive about tackling the situation. But within that mindset, still lived my tendency to allowed myself to be beaten down by repetitive ideas…like the idea that my life was on hold and there was nothing I could do about it. So Justi … Continue reading →

Herniated Disco: Necessary Scissors

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“It’s hard to separate our feelings of obligation from our own healthy choices…bottom line, people do what they do. If they don’t want to do it, they won’t. If they did it with strings attached, they shouldn’t be surprised when someone has scissors, and knows how to use them.” The above quote is one of my own, and appropriate for this post. The scissors necessary in this case have to do with a certain friend who has let me down one too many times. I have high standards for the people I consider my close friends, but i also know … Continue reading →

Herniated Disco: Quantum Bungee

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So I’m standing in the middle of the room, my T-shirt pulled over my head from the back, to bunch in the front, while I’m gathering my hair up to the top of my head, so that I can put the hair Bungee around it, so that i can apply Kinesio Tape to my neck…and just like that, the bungee was gone. I continued to hold my bunched up hair atop my head, and looked around on the carpet. No Bungee. I made another thorough check to no avail; I even check my clothes and pockets, doing a little shimmy … Continue reading →

Herniated Disco: How the Bleep Do YOU Know?

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Have been using affirmations lately, trying to have some control over my healing instead of feeling so victimized…been chanting those when i go for walks…and been watching my thoughts and trying to be positive. My Netflix came yesterday with “What the Bleep Do We Know?” –I’ve seen it before, but am revisiting all kinds of ideas, hoping to find help…I watched it last night and want to watch again today. Trying to be open to anything that might help me heal from this, and from the emotional damage I’ve had for a while now…decided I should give the ‘thoughts are … Continue reading →

Herniated Disco: Motivations & Ruminations

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Tried to stay positive today but had a hard time. A long-time fear which has simmered on the back burner for some time, is now moving toward the front burner. I was thinking about what it might mean…this situation…I intend to do wholeheartedly, start to finish, the steps outlined in the book by Dr. Daulton, when I have all the “ingredients” in place, but if the methods don’t ultimately heal me, then what? I had this sort of sick feeling every time I thought about surgery. I don’t know if it’s just my inherent fear of surgery, in and of … Continue reading →

Herniated Disco: Lies & the Lying Doctors Who Tell Them

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I am on new meds and using neck brace and neck pillow and things are doing better. I also just discovered yesterday that the neurology doc LIED to me. I’m about to go after him through certain other channels at the VA. But he told me surgery was my only option and didn’t even mention other treatments. I have since found those resources and am pretty pissed that he just decided to tell me that surgery was best for me–he has a responsibility to tell me ALL my options. I was being railroaded. Now I’ve got up to 6 months … Continue reading →