The Girls in the Band is doing very well in the charts! Thank you, readers! Here’s the FB live video I did on 19Sept2017 TOPIC: sex in lesbian fiction, menopause as it pertains to readers and writers, an erotica project, and many other things. You could call it live STEAMing, I suppose. LOL. Friend me on Facebook! https://www.facebook.com/jaebaeli
Continue reading →Melissa and I did our first Facebook Live Stream on the 16th. Here it is. SUBJECTS: Hillary’s new book, my new releases, Melissa’s book projects, calling the cops last night because someone shot at our house.
Continue reading →Shame on me. I haven’t posted a blog in a long time. SO much going on with us lately. Dealing with sudden health issues happening all at once, burned out, exhausted, feeling ill all the time, I was certainly not inspired to write. So I decided to take a 6-month sabbatical. It turned into 8 months when I found out in the middle of it I needed major surgery. So, I had to face my #2 biggest fear, (surgery) and I’ve been recovering from a full abdominal hysterectomy, and after almost 8 weeks, I’m still having some issues, which I … Continue reading →
Before going into the hospital for the procedure, I packed my Kindle, my phone, charging cables, laptop, my journal, pens, headphones, etc… What I used was my sleeping cap. So relieved to be back in my own bed though recovery will be a long process. I feel like hammered goat livers. Melissa taking good care of me. Doc said my uterus was really large, and the fibroids were bigger and more numerous than he thought. He called pathology down during surgery to have it all tested. Came out clean. But it was a good thing I did this now. Things were about … Continue reading →
Kelli Jae Baeli was feeling nervous at Washington Regional. We have arrived at the hospital. Feeling nervous but doing the right thing. The smart thing. I, Melissa, am so proud of my wife. Good thoughts, please and thank you. Good early morning, everyone. This is Melissa, but Jae may post here shortly. Her amazing surgeon came into the room a little while ago to tell Jae (while not totally drugged) about her surgery. I’ll say it again because we are both so relieved, that it all went well, that she had been doing well since she came out from surgery. It was a rough … Continue reading →
Calling all Ferrets of Fortune. I’m having surgery tomorrow and i need it to go smoothly, with no complications. Give me strength oh furry fate friends. I’m in good spirits right now; hopefully I can hold onto that without screaming and running out of Washington Regional with my hospital gown flapping in the breeze- Among other things).
Continue reading →I am terrified. I am courageous. I have braved so many things that terrified me. Things I thought I’d never survive. And here I am, “having survove.” I understand that my fear is born of the unknown, where the most potent fear often makes camp. While this is a brand new experience that has no equal, no comparison, I know more now about what is happening to me than I ever have before. And each time I learn more, I have one more tool in my tote to get this job done. I say frequently that You have to be … Continue reading →
Had my pre-op appointment today. All good. BP was best it’s been in a while- 128/82, pulse 80-something, EKG, heart normal sinus rhythm, took chest xrays, answered a hundred health questions, got more instructions, signed the consent form. I do feel very fortunate to be with the folks at Washington Regional. The best part of all that was, yes, I can take Xanax up to and including the day of surgery. LOL. Whew. That should help immensely. I was very stressed all day, just going to appointment, and I assume there will be more and more stress as the day … Continue reading →
Had my appointment with the surgeon this morning. Per his advice, decided on the Total Abdominal Hysterectomy, Bilateral Salpingo Oophoractomy and Indicated Procedures. (Seriously, that’s what it’s called. Removal of uterus, cervix, ovaries, and tubes.) The main consideration, and why I’m not doing laparoscopic procedure, is because if there is any hidden malignancy, and they do the (pardon the candor) mincing up of those organs for extraction, it could infect other organs He actually shared a story about another patient that got cancer that way. And died. Point taken. I’m sure that was his way of convincing me what the … Continue reading →
Today, I had a dentist appointment, to get a tooth pulled and cavities filled. That’s what I get for avoiding dentists for–what? 15 years? I’ve been fortunate, since I have always enjoyed healthy teeth, but I should have gone to a few of those appointments along the way. I accept the mantel of shame in that regard. We had to go to Springfield, so we didn’t get home until evening. When I laid back in the awesome Chair-I-Wish-I-Had-at-Home, It soon became apparent that they were not sure why I was there. Seems the VA had not sent over the records of the checkup … Continue reading →
It’s been a stressful week. I’ve been feeling bad for a while, now. On top of this bronchitis that has been hanging on for 3 months, and all the menopause stuff, a visit to the dentist and a scheduling of another dentist in Springfield (who uses gas, which is the only thing I’ve had a reasonably okay experience with) to have a tooth pulled and some cavities filled, and finally getting my allergy shots started, I’m NOW waiting on lab results for a uterine biopsy. Expect to know results of that and the ultrasounds on Wednesday. That part is huge … Continue reading →
I often have trouble remembering my dreams, even though i wish fervently that this was not so. Dreams are an incredible resource for a creative person, and this NO ACCESS thing makes me think that the Powers That Be are protecting me from some screaming ugly… At any rate, when i do recall a dream, i like to write it down…if it’s interesting… so… I was having exploratory brain surgery. Skull open, i had a metal halo contraption around my head. Two of the docs were in there–or orderlies, maybe…they were acting crazy, looking at my exposed gray matter. One … Continue reading →
Lila sits at the bedside of her stricken partner, Ruth, praying for her to wake up. Aneurysm. Surgery. Prognosis unclear until she opens her eyes. They had just bought a home together, begun building a life. Now Ruth fights to live, while Lila fights to stay strong. In those brief moments of pseudo-clarity, Ruth is aware of her own fear. Dark tentacles embracing her, pulling her away from lucidity, survival. Yet inside that fear lives another, just as overwhelming–that Lila might leave her. Might not be up to the challenges that lie ahead. Will she be faced with the care … Continue reading →
Tried to stay positive today but had a hard time. A long-time fear which has simmered on the back burner for some time, is now moving toward the front burner. I was thinking about what it might mean…this situation…I intend to do wholeheartedly, start to finish, the steps outlined in the book by Dr. Daulton, when I have all the “ingredients” in place, but if the methods don’t ultimately heal me, then what? I had this sort of sick feeling every time I thought about surgery. I don’t know if it’s just my inherent fear of surgery, in and of … Continue reading →
