Mind-Numbing Meaningless Morning

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I sense that I am slipping into that space between the wall and the airbed. Instinctually, I shift to the middle of the twin space. I look at the clock, because I have to look at it. I need to know what time it is. I need to get my bearings, do the math, calculate how long I’ve been asleep. Let’s see… one-thirty seven. . . I went to sleep. . . when? I recall looking at the clock when I went to sleep, trying to memorize the numbers, so that I could do these calculations when I wake up. … Continue reading →

Alien Tummy Tuck

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Just checking my hair. No apparent reason, just throwing a passing glance in the mirror on my way to turn on the shower, and saw some little blemish on my face. Closer inspection revealed nothing of consequence. But then i looked closer in the looking glass…(Alice never had a trip like that through the looking glass) closer…until i could see the pores on my skin, touch the bags under my eyes and saw how loose the skin was….my skin had become loose somewhere along the way. Not the skin of my 20’s,or even 30’s, but the skin of someone growing … Continue reading →

Terrorist attack

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The Terrorist attack on the World Trade Center in New York on September 11, 2001: Since the horrible tragedy of that day, i have watched CNN way too much and been interested in all the news much more than usual, but have resisted the urge to research Nostradamus prophecies. It might scare me too much. I understand that this will not be a simple war. I understand that even if we go to Afghanistan and assassinate Osama bin Laden, the other cells of terrorists throughout the world will still exist. And there are still governments (like the Taliban) who recognize … Continue reading →

Cognitive Dysfunction

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(this entry was made before I knew that the problem was I had Grave’s Disease, and my thyroid was dying. It was also before I knew I was an HSP. Between those two, it explains all of it. These symptoms and reactions have been tempered over the last 5 years or so with coping skills) A new phrase with echoes of old demons. Almost every difficulty I experience these days is directly related to some sort of cognitive dysfunction. I have multiple physical ailments, but the most overwhelming, the most debilitating, seems to be related to memory, concentration, and all … Continue reading →